About babyshaybug

I'm not really sure what this site is all about but i'm desperate and will try anything right now.  I am a single mother of a beautiful 2 year old girl.  I've raised her by myself since the day she was born and she's never met her biological father due to his violent nature.  It's been a real struggle but i've always managed to get by.  unfortunately I my parents do not have the means to help me financially.  Due to my Dad's chronic illness they can't babysit and i can't move back in with them because as we all know toddlers are germ magnets and a cold could kill my dad. 

I was a jack of all trades and the restaurant where i worked and i poured my heart into it.  I was promoted to a shift leader position last year but because i didn't have dependable child care and i was struggling with what i thought was a horrid case of depression, I had to step down from the position and start waiting tables again.  Server wages are only $3 per hour but tips were good enough that a was getting by, by the skin of my teeth.  I thought I hit a bit of luck when i managed to sell my 2005 aveo (cheapest car chevy makes) that i had 3 years of payments left and put all my taxes almost $3000 down on another car that i only have 8 payments of $230.  Well i found out that my depression is actually Bi-polar disorder.  I was trying to get treatment through my employee assistance program at work and i still haven't heard back from them.  The only reason why i am hear to tell this story is because there is no one else to care for my daughter.  With no medication the depression that comes with bi polar disorder is devastating.  I wish i could just give up.  I thank god for my daughter because if it weren't for her i would probabky take my own life.  I need hope and I need help.

After an incident that happened at work last week, My boss of 7 years informed me that he had to let me go.  My rent ($325 only a one bedroom apartment) is due on the 5th and my car note is also due.  They will reposses if i am only one day late and i will lose the entire $3000 i just put down on the car.  I have no where to go if i get evicted and i have no money.  Worse of all i live in a small town where there is no public transportation and my apartment is almost out in the counrty and there are no jobs in walking distance.  And since i'm a waitress i will not get a last paycheck.  I don;t know if this site is for real but if it is  GOD BLESS.   Anyone who can find it in there heart to help my daughter and I please do.  Thanks for listenting and lending an ear(or eye).  Monday i will look for another job and tuesday and wednesday and everyday but it just won't be in time.  I will sign an agreement and pay back with tax refund check to anyone who has the means and compassion to help me.

GOD BLESS you all